Sunday, July 29, 2007
ask, and you will receive
knock, and the door will be opened
for if you who are evil know how to give your children what is good,
what more the heavenly Father?
okay before all you scared-of-preachers pple run away, im not planning on preaching and convincing you all to convert. i just think e quote is worth remembering sometimes. and not just in a religious kinda way too.
dont u think sometimes we forget to ask? we want sth really bad, but we just dont ask for it. as if we are hoping someone will read our minds and give us what we want. i certainly do it alot. i shld stop expecting everyone to be able to read my mind. or maybe sometimes we're scared to ask coz we might be rejected. but thats just a risk we gotta take. coz the rewards definitely outweigh the bad. and if u never tried, u nv know what might have happened. and you'll regret not trying at least! come on, life's too short for regrets. and for reading crappy posts. oops. okay stop crapping after this full stop.
anyway i learnt an important lesson this weekend. no doubt caroline is already screaming I TOLD YOU SO!! in front of her com as she reads this. thanks dear, promise i'll listen to you nxt time okay. argh. shes always right! haha.
well. i learnt to let go. somethings are simply not within our control. and some things cannot be changed. so instead of letting them bother us, why dont we learn to let it go and just leave it? okay i didnt really learn the last part from her. its my own thought. but its sth i shld learn to do more often. like stop letting the actions and words of pple ard me bother me too much. theres nothing i can do anyway. so i shld really just not let it bother me. it doesnt mean i dont care, you know. it simply means i know i cant do anything abt it, so im gonna leave you be. and sink or swim, its your choice. abit heartless, but dont we all have to be a little heartless at times to survive?
okay. i'll spare you guys from endless ranting.
im gonna make you bend and break
say your prayers, but
let the good times rolland i want these words to make things right
but its the wrong that makes these words come to life
a star fell from the sky;
6:50 PM
Monday, July 23, 2007
no more talk of darkness
forget those wide-eyed fears
i'm here, nothing can harm you
my words will warm and calm you
let me be your freedom
let daylight dry your tears
i'm here with you, beside you
to guard you and to guide you
all i ask is every waking moment
turn my head with talk of summertime
say you need me with you
now and always
promise me that all you say is true
thats all i ask of you
let me be your shelter
let me be your light
you're safe, no one will find you
your fears are far behind you
all i want is freedom
a world with no more night
and you, always beside me
to hole me and to hide me
say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime
let me lead you from your solitude
say you need me with you, here beside you
anywhere you go, let me go too
anywhere you go, let me go too
love me, thats all i ask of you.
cheers to a fellow guardian angel :)
a star fell from the sky;
4:46 PM
Saturday, July 21, 2007
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you
a star fell from the sky;
12:46 PM
Thursday, July 19, 2007
okay im officially brain dead. chem remedial today totally slaughtered the few remaining brain cells i have. how are we supposed to function on 6 hours of sleep a day? singapore schooltimes really start at such unearthly times. shld we expect our brain [and body, for that matter] to function as per normal when we get six hours or less at night? okay, lets stop before i get into that rant again.
so, tmr is friday once again. although im really really really you-dont-know-how grateful glad for e weekend to be here, i feel the dread in my stomach. the uneasy feeling. the cannot-sleep-peacefully-at-night feeling. the mention the e-x-a-m-s word and im gonna puke. yupp, the feeling of the IMPENDING exams. haha i hope the capital drives home the point. i hate this feeling. you know i haven slept properly this whole week. despite sleeping early [and i mean really early], i dont feel like ive slept at all when i wake up. i spend the whole night having random dreams and last night i even woke up in the middle of the night. thanks man. as if having limited hours to sleep is not enough. now i cant even sleep in peace. argh.
so, as a result, ive pretty much spent this whole week being grumpy/hopeless/frustrated/irritable. sorry to everyone ive snapped at [esp my family] this week. im trying! try to empathize.
but on a lighter note, im gonna recharge this weekend and hopefully nxt week will be a better week.
you are with me everywhere i goi see you in everything andyour presence soothes my soulmaybe this is what love is aboutyou dont have to knowyou never do.
a star fell from the sky;
6:25 PM
Sunday, July 15, 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST JOANNE!!
i hope u had a good day today dear :)
so of course, its more than appropriate to post the pics of joanne's early birthday celebrations!
this is me and jov when we were shopping for joanne's present. as you can see, we got abit distracted sometimes.
this is joanne and her strudel!! and her birthday card :)
us and the card :)
and yes, thats yet another celebration to rmbr. even tho our inital plan failed thanks to my screwed up phone, i think it was still sweet enough for joanne. nxt yr will be sweeter, my dear :) love you lots lots lots. take care! and dont think too much. hehh.
a star fell from the sky;
6:17 PM
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
hmm. i just realised its been a long time since ive seen my mom. except for early in the morning before i rush off to school, i hardly see her at all. quite weird, considering shes not working or anything. haha. and we still live under the same roof. but its really been a long time since we had dinner together. recently its always been us and my dad. which is okay too actually. since even tho shes not physically there, i always know shes ard. from the food on the table, the clothes that are washed. maybe this is what a mother's love is all about. omnipresent. HAHA. isnt that what all love is about?
okay this post is getting even more random.
school has been okay. but somehow i feel tired all the time. and frustrated too. and i sleep at ten plus every night! thats weird la. and i dont feel like im absorbing much in school too. so wheres all my energy going? haha. i have no idea too. isnt this cool. like i have some energy sucker in me to suck away all my energy so i'll never feel energised again. sad reality. haha. anyway. moving on. CT2 results suck la. i dont know how it can be worse than CT1 since we had one month of no school to study for it, but somehow it is. thanks man. makes me feel all the more shitty. and i just cant shake the shitty feeling. what if this happens again at As? then its really o-v-e-r. i dont know what i'll do. but i hope i never have to think about that.
give me the faith and perseverance i need to continue with this thankless task.
bloody hell.
saying i love you,is not the words i want to hear from youits not that i dont want younot to say but if only you knewhow easy it would be to show me how you feelmore than words is all you have to doto make it realthen you wouldn't have to say you loved mecoz i'd already know
a star fell from the sky;
10:09 PM
Saturday, July 07, 2007
yesterday was a really quiet day in school. and i saw something that reminded me of you and made me really wanna cry. i really had to hold back the tears, and it wasnt a nice feeling at all.
its times like this, that i really wish you were with me all the time.
its times like this, that really makes me wonder if i made the right decision.
and its times like this, that makes me really appreciate you.
i hope you never had to feel how i felt and you'll never get the chance to.
but after school was fun. went down to forum and then to meet jovena. i feel so mean la. she waited for me for one hour plus!! first time i was ever that late, and im really sorry jov! promise it wont happen again!! haha if it does i give you permission to slaughter me on the spot. haha. but shopping was fun :) kept getting distracted and looking at our own stuff but we did manage to buy what we set out to. and den it was on to jov's house to make the stuff! haha and we came up with a really great plan :) im looking forward to it man. haha coming soon! yayy. love ya dear. we are pro planners alr!
okay thats all. enjoy your weekend everyone! and rmbr its LIVE EARTH! do sth for e environment!
a star fell from the sky;
1:07 PM
Sunday, July 01, 2007
happiness is watching your brother perform
happiness is watching your sister compete
happiness is indochine, shopping, and a good friend
happiness is making the one you love smile
happiness is yoga and the wind on your face
happiness is talking to good friends you havent seen in a long time
happiness is knowing that their doing fine
happiness is seeing actions of great faith
happiness is seeing an old couple still holding hands
happiness talking to friends who make you laugh
pain is seeing your sister fail the qualifying rounds
pain is seeing the one you love hurt and not being able to do anything about it
pain is sitting opposite the one you love and not being able to say how you feel
pain is pretending that everythings fine when its not
pain is seeing your friends sink into something bad and not being able to help
we may be a thousand miles apartbut I'll be with you wherever you areI'm the sunshine in your hairI'm the shadow on the groundI'm the whisper in the windand I'll be there till the end
a star fell from the sky;
3:03 PM
